Kamis, 30 Juni 2011

A Letter to Mom&Dad

Dear Dad,
Could you please stop comparing me with my genius cousins?

Dear Mom,
Could you please stop planning my future without asking my opinions first?

I'm sorry i couldnt make you both proud of me YET

Sincerely,
Your Stupid Luckless Only Daughter

Sedih

Aku sedih cintaku ditolak sama UI padahal aku udah merayu dia dengan mengerjakan soal2 snmptn sebaik yang aku bisa usahakan haha. Mungkin aku bisa memenangkan hatinya lewat bantuan si mak comblang bernama SIMAK. SIMAK pun mengajukan syarat jika ingin menggunakan jasanya yaitu aku harus lebih siap baik secara materi ataupun mental. Dan aku rasa aku mungkin akan bisa sedikit lebih siap dari sebelumnya. Aku hanya bisa berusaha dan berdoa, maka kalian yg membaca tulisan ini tolong doakan aku juga ya tanpa doa kalian aku sama aja kayak pungguk merindukan bulan atau pecundang yang menginginkan kemenangan.

Dear UI, lihat ya aku pasti akan mendapatkanmu (insyaAllah)

Ya Allah bantu aku mendapatkan yang terbaik untuk masa depanku...

Jumat, 24 Juni 2011

Giving Up and Moving On

Finally I've realized I dont deserve this and honestly you dont deserve me yeah i still love you and probably will for a long time but I cant stay here anymore. It hurts too much I guess this is moving on.

I guess because I'm tired of being the last thing on your mind. I should have known from the start you'd go anyway and break my heart.

You took my love and threw it away as if it were nothing. To me you're everything but to you I'm just another meantime girl.

You hurt me more than I deserve, how can you be so cruel?
I love you more than I deserve, why am I such a fool?

Now, I believe when ppl say love is blind cause I must have been blind to love a person like you. It finally hit me that you didnt care when you walked away and never looked back.

I wanna do exactly what you did to me: lead you on, make you fall for me then just let you go....Effortlessly...

Sometimes I wish I could go back and erase the day we met. But then I will regret loving you only believing you loving me too.

One day, you will seek love and be sorry that you threw mine away and one day you'll realize you could have been with me.

One day, I will be able to look you int the eye without feeling the pain you've caused.

One day, I will be able to stand next to you without wanting to hold your hands.

One day.....

I'll get over you....